Rant...

i just needed somewhere to write because i can't keep this all in my head any longer. I'm still kind of in shock and a little numb and it seems like my whole world is crashing down around me. Anyways, I will have to start back to last month when my mom decided she would go to Vegas with the ex that basically ruined mine and my families lives.The short version of the story is that when they got together, my mom had just gotten a divorce and wasn't in a good place... so he took advantage of that and ruined everything. So we up and ran away from this guy, but 15 years later, she goes to Vegas by herself with him... and he has the nerve to ask her to move to Ohio with him. She believes he's changed, but I still have that sunk feeling in my gut. We've all expressed our consirn about this, but she's made up her mind.

Now, on to another issue... my wedding. It's in jepordy of being moved because it's an inconvience to the Marine Corps and apparently we haven't done the proper process of going through the paperwork, classes, or notifying the command... which is false, we have. We told them back in January and February about our April 16th wedding, and 15 days before hand, they want to call us and tell us that we can't get married? I'm sorry, you mister are wrong... we are going to get married on April 16th because that is the day we have planned on. There have been other instinces about these guys trying to screw over my fiance, but I'm not going to let it happen. They cannot tell us if we can or cannot get married... we are, and that's final. I'm not going to have some Corporal tell my fiance  he can't get married and get away with it. If Caleb doesn't act fast, I'm sending in Plan B. I won't have my wedding ruined because someone had a broom up their butt and wanted to take it out on Caleb.

Okay, don'e with that... so now on to my Virgo ways of viewing every option and over thinking/analyzing  every little detail. So IF the wedding is postponed, we will have to move everything, spend more money, and re send all the invitations... which is another headache and an endless amount of sleepless nights. So I'm praying we can keep the date. After the wedding, if we can't get Base housing (because NBK is retarded), my mom has a plan of renting the house to us! I asked her if she could write out the expenses and we could come to an agreement satisfying both her and our wallets.She plans to have the house fixed up and ready for either rent or selling by the time of the wedding, so if we rent she could possibly have a place to come back to if the Ohio thing doesn't work out. If we do get base housing (crossing my fingers for), we could easily be close to where Caleb works and I would only have to commute 20 min to work, which isn't bad, since I do that anyways.

as for wedding options, I'm still weighing everything, but I need to hear back form Caleb about what the Corps have decided on. WISH US LUCK that we can keep the April 16th date!!!

Praying for Japan.

I am so glad to hear that my friends in Guam and Japan are okay. I am sending out prayers for recovery in Japan and that the country rises up and becomes once again the leaders in innovation.

I have a lot of Japanese tourists that come in to Mora, and I find that they are some the nicest people I have ever met. Through their broken English, I have learned some amazing things about them.

I am praying for Japan.

So, everyones doing it... Here's the 25 of me:

1. I do believe I was born in the wrong region of the States... I'm a Southern girl to the core, but was raised in the Northwest.

2. Mama always said I'd marry a Marine, and lookie here, I am :)

3. I LOVE love love my job!

4. I'm studying Psychology.

5. I am very stubborn.

6. I MUST have at least 2 cups of coffee in the morning to function properly in society.

7. If you knew me back in High school, you might say I have Rage issues, but I've gotten help with it.

8. I judge myself so harshly I don't feel capable of achieving anything.

9. I am a classically trained vocalist, but I am to shy to sing in front of anyone.

10. I was on debate team for a couple of years and we were in the top 15 debate teams in Washington.

11. I have been to over 10 states plus Canada and Mexico.

12. I don't drink - at all- because I love alcohol too much.

13. My best friend is my unbiological sister, and I miss her every day.

14. I use to be a fictional writer, but havent written a story in years.

15. I clean... all the time. My OCD is sinks.

16. I keep all my paperwork organized, but my head is chaotic...

17. I wanted to be a Marine ever since I was younger, but my Ssgt uncle talked me out of that.

18. I have highly sensitive skin, and have to use organic face wash and makeup.

19. I am lactose intolerant but I work at an ice cream shop...

20. I basically grew up in a barn... my family had horses up until I was 15.

21. Penguins are my favorite animal.

22. I keep my car absolutely spotless.

23. My favorite shows are NCIS, Bones, Criminal Minds, UFC and Say Yes to the Dress: ATL

24. I stress out way to easily.

25. This was really hard to do... I don't normally think of myself that often.

Sometimes I just sit and wish.

I don't know what's happened in the past few weeks, but a really good friend of mine has decided to stop talking to me. I don't know what his deal is, but I don't want to force him or push him father away. It just doesn't make sense to me, but I guess I can't change it.

I'd love to change it and be friends again, but he won't respond to any of my calls. I don't know what I did, but for some reason we aren't talking. I don't want this to be our falling out because he is a really great guy, but I guess it just didn't work out for us. I had hoped to be friends, but I guess he has another plan in mind... forgetting everything.

The sad thing, he's gone to Japan for over two years, and while that's a long time, I understand his "reason" of not wanting to communicate with someone that caused chaos for the last 6 months of your time home... The timing wasn't right, and I couldn't drop EVERYTHING.

I can't keep kicking myself for not being the best friend i could have been, because that's the past, but sometimes I just sit and wish I could change everything. I lost a great friend because I wasn't the best friend I could be and now I have to live with his decision to move on. I hope one day we can start talking again, because he really is an amazing guy. Until that day, I'll kick myself and regret the way I treated him. There isn't much i can do or say, since I don't know what he thinks because he won't talk to me anymore. So, I'll just sit and wish.

It's been a while...

I find myself on Tumblr a lot more than i am on here... I started this to kind of get my thoughts out, but also the keep my thoughts organized (which I find nearly impossible). I really had no idea what I wanted my Blogspot to be about, until I found myself slipping comfortably into the role of "Wife." Now I want this to be about my adventures as a Military wife and a savvy shopper among the balance of the paycheck we receive through his job and my minimum wage- part time job as an associate at one of the BEST ice cream shops ever, Mora Iced Creamery. Don't be surprised if  spam you all with my love affair with my job :)

Now, onto the main point of this post... Sunday and the art of Coupon Clipping! Oh my gosh do I love this new-found hobby of mine! I'm actually having fun looking through the Sunday paper at the ads and finding great deals for the week. I also use my online websites as well. I know only a few stores will post their sales, but I am looking for more. If anyone has good sites to check out, I'd love to hear about them! So far i fell in love with Wal-Mart online, Target online and the NEX.

Day 5- My favorite memory.

Well this is easily said... riding horses. From the first day I learned how to ride to the last time I rode. I feel complete in the saddle, and the only sensation I can feel is complete freedom. I have always loved riding and I couldn't wait for the next ride. I love it so much, I wrote a descriptive paper for my college English course on my experience riding and growing up around horses. You get me talking about horses, and i will not stop.

Wow, I'm a bit behind... day 4

My Night.

It was a pretty relaxing night. I've been in an emotional turmoil for the past week, but it was nice to have a time to just relax. I spent the whole day with Caleb, which was amazing because i know that those days and nights are going to become few and far between within the next few months, so i loved being able to spend the day with him, get some errands done, and go out to dinner with a couple of friends. I bought "The American" for him, the one with George Clooney and I fell asleep with in the first 10 minutes. It wasn't as action packed as I thought it would be... But George Clooney was still amazing :)

So, a relaxing night leads to a day of deep cleaning and coffee drinking :)