Sometimes I just sit and wish.

I don't know what's happened in the past few weeks, but a really good friend of mine has decided to stop talking to me. I don't know what his deal is, but I don't want to force him or push him father away. It just doesn't make sense to me, but I guess I can't change it.

I'd love to change it and be friends again, but he won't respond to any of my calls. I don't know what I did, but for some reason we aren't talking. I don't want this to be our falling out because he is a really great guy, but I guess it just didn't work out for us. I had hoped to be friends, but I guess he has another plan in mind... forgetting everything.

The sad thing, he's gone to Japan for over two years, and while that's a long time, I understand his "reason" of not wanting to communicate with someone that caused chaos for the last 6 months of your time home... The timing wasn't right, and I couldn't drop EVERYTHING.

I can't keep kicking myself for not being the best friend i could have been, because that's the past, but sometimes I just sit and wish I could change everything. I lost a great friend because I wasn't the best friend I could be and now I have to live with his decision to move on. I hope one day we can start talking again, because he really is an amazing guy. Until that day, I'll kick myself and regret the way I treated him. There isn't much i can do or say, since I don't know what he thinks because he won't talk to me anymore. So, I'll just sit and wish.

It's been a while...

I find myself on Tumblr a lot more than i am on here... I started this to kind of get my thoughts out, but also the keep my thoughts organized (which I find nearly impossible). I really had no idea what I wanted my Blogspot to be about, until I found myself slipping comfortably into the role of "Wife." Now I want this to be about my adventures as a Military wife and a savvy shopper among the balance of the paycheck we receive through his job and my minimum wage- part time job as an associate at one of the BEST ice cream shops ever, Mora Iced Creamery. Don't be surprised if  spam you all with my love affair with my job :)

Now, onto the main point of this post... Sunday and the art of Coupon Clipping! Oh my gosh do I love this new-found hobby of mine! I'm actually having fun looking through the Sunday paper at the ads and finding great deals for the week. I also use my online websites as well. I know only a few stores will post their sales, but I am looking for more. If anyone has good sites to check out, I'd love to hear about them! So far i fell in love with Wal-Mart online, Target online and the NEX.

Day 5- My favorite memory.

Well this is easily said... riding horses. From the first day I learned how to ride to the last time I rode. I feel complete in the saddle, and the only sensation I can feel is complete freedom. I have always loved riding and I couldn't wait for the next ride. I love it so much, I wrote a descriptive paper for my college English course on my experience riding and growing up around horses. You get me talking about horses, and i will not stop.

Wow, I'm a bit behind... day 4

My Night.

It was a pretty relaxing night. I've been in an emotional turmoil for the past week, but it was nice to have a time to just relax. I spent the whole day with Caleb, which was amazing because i know that those days and nights are going to become few and far between within the next few months, so i loved being able to spend the day with him, get some errands done, and go out to dinner with a couple of friends. I bought "The American" for him, the one with George Clooney and I fell asleep with in the first 10 minutes. It wasn't as action packed as I thought it would be... But George Clooney was still amazing :)

So, a relaxing night leads to a day of deep cleaning and coffee drinking :)