Rant...

i just needed somewhere to write because i can't keep this all in my head any longer. I'm still kind of in shock and a little numb and it seems like my whole world is crashing down around me. Anyways, I will have to start back to last month when my mom decided she would go to Vegas with the ex that basically ruined mine and my families lives.The short version of the story is that when they got together, my mom had just gotten a divorce and wasn't in a good place... so he took advantage of that and ruined everything. So we up and ran away from this guy, but 15 years later, she goes to Vegas by herself with him... and he has the nerve to ask her to move to Ohio with him. She believes he's changed, but I still have that sunk feeling in my gut. We've all expressed our consirn about this, but she's made up her mind.

Now, on to another issue... my wedding. It's in jepordy of being moved because it's an inconvience to the Marine Corps and apparently we haven't done the proper process of going through the paperwork, classes, or notifying the command... which is false, we have. We told them back in January and February about our April 16th wedding, and 15 days before hand, they want to call us and tell us that we can't get married? I'm sorry, you mister are wrong... we are going to get married on April 16th because that is the day we have planned on. There have been other instinces about these guys trying to screw over my fiance, but I'm not going to let it happen. They cannot tell us if we can or cannot get married... we are, and that's final. I'm not going to have some Corporal tell my fiance  he can't get married and get away with it. If Caleb doesn't act fast, I'm sending in Plan B. I won't have my wedding ruined because someone had a broom up their butt and wanted to take it out on Caleb.

Okay, don'e with that... so now on to my Virgo ways of viewing every option and over thinking/analyzing  every little detail. So IF the wedding is postponed, we will have to move everything, spend more money, and re send all the invitations... which is another headache and an endless amount of sleepless nights. So I'm praying we can keep the date. After the wedding, if we can't get Base housing (because NBK is retarded), my mom has a plan of renting the house to us! I asked her if she could write out the expenses and we could come to an agreement satisfying both her and our wallets.She plans to have the house fixed up and ready for either rent or selling by the time of the wedding, so if we rent she could possibly have a place to come back to if the Ohio thing doesn't work out. If we do get base housing (crossing my fingers for), we could easily be close to where Caleb works and I would only have to commute 20 min to work, which isn't bad, since I do that anyways.

as for wedding options, I'm still weighing everything, but I need to hear back form Caleb about what the Corps have decided on. WISH US LUCK that we can keep the April 16th date!!!

Praying for Japan.

I am so glad to hear that my friends in Guam and Japan are okay. I am sending out prayers for recovery in Japan and that the country rises up and becomes once again the leaders in innovation.

I have a lot of Japanese tourists that come in to Mora, and I find that they are some the nicest people I have ever met. Through their broken English, I have learned some amazing things about them.

I am praying for Japan.

So, everyones doing it... Here's the 25 of me:

1. I do believe I was born in the wrong region of the States... I'm a Southern girl to the core, but was raised in the Northwest.

2. Mama always said I'd marry a Marine, and lookie here, I am :)

3. I LOVE love love my job!

4. I'm studying Psychology.

5. I am very stubborn.

6. I MUST have at least 2 cups of coffee in the morning to function properly in society.

7. If you knew me back in High school, you might say I have Rage issues, but I've gotten help with it.

8. I judge myself so harshly I don't feel capable of achieving anything.

9. I am a classically trained vocalist, but I am to shy to sing in front of anyone.

10. I was on debate team for a couple of years and we were in the top 15 debate teams in Washington.

11. I have been to over 10 states plus Canada and Mexico.

12. I don't drink - at all- because I love alcohol too much.

13. My best friend is my unbiological sister, and I miss her every day.

14. I use to be a fictional writer, but havent written a story in years.

15. I clean... all the time. My OCD is sinks.

16. I keep all my paperwork organized, but my head is chaotic...

17. I wanted to be a Marine ever since I was younger, but my Ssgt uncle talked me out of that.

18. I have highly sensitive skin, and have to use organic face wash and makeup.

19. I am lactose intolerant but I work at an ice cream shop...

20. I basically grew up in a barn... my family had horses up until I was 15.

21. Penguins are my favorite animal.

22. I keep my car absolutely spotless.

23. My favorite shows are NCIS, Bones, Criminal Minds, UFC and Say Yes to the Dress: ATL

24. I stress out way to easily.

25. This was really hard to do... I don't normally think of myself that often.